Scared of becoming – 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 bungee
I wrote in my journal this morning…I am scared of becoming…
After years of dedication, a business is about to be launched…and I feel the fear sitting there. Fear of change of lifestyle, circumstance…of burying old ‘past their use by date’ stories…
There is a future self who is skilled at a whole raft of things I am not.
And as I breathe into this fear, I know that there is only one path forward…the very next step…repeat..repeat…
Now is the time to not get caught in the future…to stay present. To keep my feet on the ground. To keep coming back into my body, now…today…and not be sucked into some place that is not now.
Many years ago, when I did a bungee jump…I knew the strategy before I went up on the bungee platform. Do exactly as the instructor said…5, 4, 3, 2, 1…bungee…Sure, my mind was screaming, and my fear was pretty high… but the next step was not to wait… wait, wait… it was bungee.
